It’s been 3 years since I walked the Columbus Half Marathon. Three years since I really felt in shape. Now, roughly 30 pounds later and a beautiful 4-month-old baby boy, things are much tougher this time around. The last couple of weeks have been a true struggle. I am training with some friends and have lately found any excuse not to walk. Heat, being tired, my friend’s on vacation, you know it, I used it. Anything to not strap on my shoes and head out. And when I do walk I just feel SO much SLOWER and if I am being honest, just not as into it. I have been very disappointed in myself.

So yes, the last couple of weeks have been extremely challenging. But my attitude and motivation is turning back around all because I went bathing suit shopping. I wouldn’t recommend this four months after having a baby. I was shocked at what I saw in the mirror. I cried. It was horrible. When something is unappealing you decide right then and there that something HAS to be done about it. How did I let this happen? I realize I just had a baby but still…I was not prepared. It’s something about seeing yourself in a bathing suit that makes you want to run screaming out of the store. Unless you are one of those women who can eat whatever you want and don’t have to work out (sigh), you know EXACTLY what I am talking about.

Then my husband Sam bought me a gift certificate to the Columbus Running Company for my birthday. Just in the nick of time. I needed a little excitement and a kick-start to my training again. I am thrilled about getting shoes that fit properly. I have always worn Nikes, but who knows now… maybe those have always been the wrong ones for my feet. And of course new shoes are always a motivation to get out right?

I think it’s good that this has happened. Sometimes obstacles give us just the push we need. I really need that push and although I started out strong and my motivation was fierce and I started my training with gusto, I got sidetracked along the way. I have a goal and I need to see it through. So what if I am slower and not as fit as the last time? I guess I need to realize that YES there will be days where I don’t want to go out and do my walk. And there will be times I am less than pleased about my pace and timing. But I know that I have to do this. Not only for me, but for my baby boy. Even though he is too little to understand, I want him to be proud of his mama and know that obstacles may knock you off course, but you have to get back up, brush yourself off and always try to finish what you started.